no
how could you know
i barely fuckin’ know
i wonder if anyone reads this anymore. maybe tonya gets like some kind of notice if i write something.
i think sydney and melanie came in here and checked it out once or twice. hi if you see this. i love you both.
i made a conscious decision not to just fuckin’ spew my personal shit all over the internet. something i am perfectly capable of doing, btw. and i mean i can spew it ALL the hell over. the whole damn world will see it
i am tempted to completely rip apart the lives of a couple people just because of spam. i haven’t because i refuse to give them the power and because truth is i am SO surrounded by assholes that the shit that’s annoying me may actually be coming from someone else.
i live for tiny temporary flash like moments of clarity and beauty and art and revelation and love
they last for SECONDS. maybe less. in return i slog through days weeks months god i can’t bear it of horrible trudge sludge ick yuck
they make it worth it
but sometimes it is fuckin’ CLOSE
i ain’t ever going where lois went it’s a pussy way even though you need a bunch of balls for about half a second
but every once in a while
i fuckin’ get it
i’m not a pussy. i’m not going. and i’m nice cause i live with the world’s nicest person. but that can change. in an instant. and yes this is fuckin’ nice. live with it.
go ask someone who watched me…uh…before. there aren’t that many of ‘em but they are out there. go ask Mitchell or James. you can’t ask steven or bill cause they’re fuckin’ dead. you could ask lisa but i have a feeling we don’t need to link her up here. or go ask my poor old father before i kill him by sending him to some goddamn place 300 or 3000 or whatever miles away.
i really do love my honey
i’m never gonna completely get her
i had better make sure i am fuckin’ happy for more than 3 seconds a month
later
oh and by the way
from the Bill of Rights. The first ten amemdments to the U.S. Constitution. Go ahead and click it. It’s a live link and none of you have read it and you ALL SHOULD FUCKIN’ READ IT.
here’s today’s talmud lesson
Amendment VI
In all criminal prosecutions, the accused shall enjoy the right to a speedy and public trial, by an impartial jury of the state and district wherein the crime shall have been committed, which district shall have been previously ascertained by law, and to be informed of the nature and cause of the accusation; to be confronted with the witnesses against him; to have compulsory process for obtaining witnesses in his favor, and to have the assistance of counsel for his defense.
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If you don’t get why I think this shit is so important, fuckin’ read it again. And again. And again until you get it for pete’s sake.
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howard
And somebody said “Hey man did you see that? His body hit the street with such a beautiful thud”
I wonder what the dude was sayin’ or was he just lost in the flood?
bruce springsteen

